I say..I will..

I would be a darn hypocrite if I say that I have never been jealous/insecure/envious in my entire life..
you know..no matter how we are wonderfully made there would still comes a time where all we want to disappear because we have just found someone who was far better than we are..
its mind over matter peach.. was it really? of course it is
okay. im ending this post with a smile and saying Im great no matter how great others may be.
God's with me.
He's great therefore I am. :D I want to eat. maybe off to eastwood some time later. :D fazoli's

the return..

oyes..
on my previous blog..ive already said that I will no longer blog here..but I had a
change of mind.
just so..
here I am again.. blogging..

signing off..

dear blogger/blogspot, hi! thank you for the times you let me write in your wonderful site that serves as m outlet for this past few months. but i knoiw you know tha some things are bound to end.and this is the end of us.. im breaking up with you :) i do love you still but im just seeking for a greener pasture aka greener site..but don't mis understood the "greener" its not what you think it is. okay? its just that i think that i can express myself more with some other blogging sites but it doesnt mean you're not as good aa them huh?. again love you.
signing off..
peach

goog mourn-ing

Dear God
I don't want this feeling anymore..
I just want life and love..life and love..
I don't wanna hurt anymore..
It's crushing my system..
If only you can take away all the bad memories..
will you?
please?
but I know you won't..
can I just ask for some change of mind regarding that..
that..
oh my..(sob)
please
Amen.

OYES. I wanna go jogging.

okay..
inhale..
exhale..
(repeat nth times) tae.
i want to go to rainfrest but the one i wanted to be with is still sleeping his ass out (oopss peach :D) jk

Make me great..

Make me great..

But not as great that I forget to take care of my parents in their old age..

Make me great..

But not as great that I will not look up to those who had inspired me for years..

Make me great..

But not as great that I forget I have a sister..

Make me great..

But still make me appreciate your given beauty..

Make me great..

But still make me love only one man..

Make me great..

But still make me visible to the church I belong..

Make me great..

That I can still be humble despite the greatness I possess..

Make me great..

But not as great that I may forget that I am your child..

Make me great

but still make me that fragile child

that will look to you when greatness seems to fade..

I have decided

For those months that had been gone without me writing anythin here,I guess I can say that I had all my hidden emotions out,freakingly,that hurt some of my loved ones and make them suffer to so I decided to again write my deepest and even the slightest feeling I may have feel in the future. welcome peach.

God is dead and we are HIS murderers.

try to imagine this: you lie, you cheat, you focus on yourself, you disobey... and a lot more others. there are almost trillions of 'YOU' in this world. In every single mistake that we commit.. God weeps have you ever imagine how much tears did He shed because we failed to please him? Trillions of people doing the same thing for over 2000 years including those frequency of time we have commited sins.. do you think He can manage that? For all the weeping He had experience long before you ,another you, was born..For all the hardships.. there is really a possibility for him to die. NOW.. IF you really love Him... will you continue killin him all over again? Or you stand up for him and make HIM live.. -hayy i really like philosophy ST: sir mara

it doesn't ease the pain..

generic name: mefenamic acid
name for me : damn drug
how can a pain reliever ruin my day. look. i just want to ease the pain I am feling down there..I never want my eyes to be affected..again! hinding hindi na talaga ako iinom ng pain reliever! it's name doesn't apply to me.. it just gives me allergic reactions.

****
wasn't able to take theology quiz. wasn't able to pass my ics1 rp. missed mr.yap's trashtalks
boredom. inflammed eyes. loss of appetite.
some of the aftermaths Ive gone through.. because of the not-so-pain-relieving- drug.

elevator part two

elevator sucks.

stairs going up to 5th floor sucks more.

working scholar lang daw ang pwede.

wt!?

bakit sila lang ba ang napapagod at namamatya pag umaakyat

stairs??

c'mon guys. unfair.

elevator..(bow)

july 20,2010..

oyess..

nkasakay kmi sa elevator for the very first time..and its so memorable.

elevator?

anu bang meron sa elevator?

eh meron namang hagdan..

tao nga naman! hayy!

haha...ok continuation next session.

mis ko na ung LIFE ko. super.

:(

i love you

i hate it when..

I have done every little thing just to come back with my old self tapos biglang may dadating na tao para ibalik ako. back to zero. here I am again..hahanapin ko na naman si precious. wish i could still find her.

to-do list..

my To-do list:

• philo-review
• theo-homework (ohyess)
• tarp design- youth rev?? and for anniv?? (not sure)
• frame design for anniv give aways
• video presentation
• concept for bulletin board
• english -due on wedenesday
• repent
• repent
• repent

that's all for now..

dear Lord,

help me finish all the listings here..

may it be for your glory and not for mine..

work on me..work with me..and let me work for you

Amen.

freshmen recollection

after the campus tour.. we had the "recollection" the next day.. *answered prayer* - because the night before the said event I was struggling..and I'm super duper down..I prayed for a thing,event or even a person that can change the way I think or even the way I feel..and the others are history..so that's it Thank you FATHER..

maraming masakit sa mundo XD

yesterday: july6,2010 masakit palang mag-avocado kapag nag-isaw,nag-tokneneng,nag-sarsi,nag-inihaw na dugo,nag-mcfloat at nag-tapsilog kana. swear. :)
today:july7,2010 masakit mag assume. masakit makita ung pinakamalaking sakit sa buhay mo. masakit maglakad papunta sa main bldg galing sa lover's lane,lipat sa ust hospital, and end up with engineering bldg para lang maglanas ng sama ng loob. masakit kapag pagbalik mo sa lover's lane eh wala na doon ung mga kasamahan mo. masakit magpunta sa 4thfloor nursing auditorium kapag galing sa lover's lane katangahaliang tapat. masakit kapag masakit na nga yung tummy mo pupunta kapa sa ministop para kumain ng noodles dahil umulan.

BAD day. please Lord..GV nmn sana bkas..
i love you. goodnight creatures.

right now..at this very moment..I am...

I am facing the screen..typing..searching for words that can exactly describe what's inside me.

tama nga si Sir Mara.

here on earth..we are made to suffer.

(ooppss..im just kiddin)

ok let's do it random :)

kaninang umaga..i was already at the lrt station..headed upstairs..

suddenly..a thought popped out on my head..as you can see there's this stairs and escalators way up the area where the train pick up/drop the passengers.

Life is a matter of choice nga.

have you ever wondered about why some people choose escalators instead of stairs?

they maybe of different reasons..but still the bottomline..it's their choice.

so hindi rin natin masisi yung ibang tao..

about their choices..

there's a FREEWILL given to us right?

unfortunately not all were given the gift of WISDOM..

****

july 7, 2010

campus tour

excited? not really :)

"campus tour" is just one of my hobby in UST..when my feet drags me away from home :D

****

ICS^

you never failed to amuse me..

up until now..or should I say..at this early..

we were emailed a lot of workloads.

haha. that's fun.

and I'm lying right now :D

****

why is it that when someone learns about that you

had this 2-year relationship with your

"boyfriend-turned-ex"..they would stare you with that

oh-so-can't-explain look that comes with

"OOHH..s**t..that's kinda long..huwwaat happen?!!??"

honestly..I don't know :D

ang alam ko lang..masakit magmahal..

ok..ok..no bitterness..please :)

****

may naisip nkong concept ng

video presentation..

thanks to HIM and to him <3

ok..so much for randomness :D

****

THANK YOU LORD.

GOODNIGHT CREATURES .

Break down these walls...

Dear Lord,

I thank you for giving me the opportunity to serve you..

I may have been unworthy of it..still..I was given the chance..

Oh God I pray that I maybe given also the courage to continue serving you..

despite the hardships..persecutions..and the likes..

Amen.

random thoughts are on my mind right now..

as a believer of Jesus Christ ..I should not be like this..but I am :(

I know this is one strategy of Satan to divert my newly-revived-being..

I don't want to turn my back on HIM again..(Lord,help me)

status: weak (needs to be fed by HIS word)

NOt-so-dearest sea.

I know you're good looking,blue,cool,wet,liquid,salty,3/4 of earth's geographical structure and undeniably beautiful. But haven't I mentioned that slightly hate you inspite of your beauty!? I hate how you separate me from the ones I love! How can you let a pitiful me to be left by those I love. How can you do that? Another special person to me is leaving. you know what? you increase distance. you make me so far away from them. NOTE: If you can't really be that generous to make land connected again with each other like pangaea of ancient times..just don't be so unpredictable. Be nice sea. :one thing that console me is God maketh not another you in my 2nd life.

for the nth time.

Don't make it too hard for yourself.

"you're still the same you..better stop telling me that you're changed after what happened..CAUSE YOU'RE NOT."

Let God and let go.

na-ah :l

I have a weird feeling right now. time check- 10:17 pm status- sleepy :) goodnight. psok pa bkas.

Dear ICS6..

Ohyess.. 3-unit subject Major. LAB a very good source of haste. i love how you make us,1ITA,cram and chat on ym because of your detailed and grouped activities. please be nice. we're only freshmen. so don't push it too hard for us right now :) (please tell that also to your master,Sir Joe) PS supposedly,Im on my way to sleeping..but because of you.. I guess I have to prepare myself for 'sleepless nights' goodnight creatures goodnight God.

TOMASINO NA AKO.

june 23,2010

freshmen walk.

welcome party.

initiation.

and the coolest part... HEAVY rain.

I'm happy. indeed, I was.

Not just because it's a university established 400 years ago..but because I know HE has a plan for me. And part of that plan is my stay in the university.

It feels good to pass through the arch of the centuries where other great men and women pass through way back their generations.

Of course..this is just the beginning of things that are bound to change my life :)

goodluck to me and to my blockmates.

SM: HI louis :)

hello God.

I love you.

at last.

oohhyess. another outlet for me. I love multiply. and Im at getting-to-know-each-other state with blogger. for now I need to take a bath first..and continue blogging later.